I think it’s really interesting how people can be in a mood for music. Lately, I’ve been listening to a lot of mewithoutyou. How music is able to make someone feel is amazing. In going to college, I’ve easily gone through one of the biggest transitions in my life. I didn’t predict this to be a difficult change for me, and it wasn’t. But music was one of the things that kept me sane in high school, and it’s keeping that up in college. I do believe that music is a uniting factor; it’s what has introduced me to my best friends here.
It’s also strange how music can be used to describe things. There’s a reason why “Details in the Fabric” by Jason Mraz is my top played song. There are reasons why I have only recently been able to listen to certain bands and songs again. There are reasons why I will never be able to listen to certain things again. It helps me to understand things going on in my life, and things that happened to me. High school got dramatic at times. It really sucked some days. But one thing that kept me going was the music, the knowledge that there was someone who went through what I went through and clearly they survived because now they’re singing about it.
I really don’t know what I’m trying to say here. I’m trying to be witty and philosophical while really I’m just sitting on the floor of my room surrounded by half-finished knitting projects. I guess I’m just rambling. I have a lot to say but I don’t know how to say it. Maybe that’s what music’s about, what it’s meant to say. It was created by people who didn’t know how to say what they wanted, so they made it melodical.
This doesn’t make any sense. It really doesn’t. And I get that. But I feel as if I have something that I want to say, but I just don’t know what yet. I really want to find out what it is so I can finally say it. And when that day comes where I know what I’m saying, I’m not going to hide it from the world like I did back in high school.
pour your empty heart in it but finish what you started 